Ok so I have neglected writing for an entire month now. It's that week of strength you ensue after a hard point in your life. And then reality kicks in and you get shot right back down....or maybe you don't...just me....and I wouldn't say exactly shot back down...just a detract in motivation. It takes so much energy to push through a rough spot, and just like a race, if you use all your juice up in the beginning you'll trek slower to the finish. Well here I am again, with my second wind.
The weight has been lifted. It's officially gone, a distant memory, and now I am once again finding purpose in my life, except this time for myself, and only myself. You see....that is the problem with getting involved in a serious relationship before you have fully developed yourself and where you want to go. It makes it easier to stop worrying about that and just live in the moment. But that my friends, is not reality.
What is reality is that you will one day be completely on your own--financially, emotionally, and physically. It is better to develop your independence in these three areas in the beginning, those who become landmarks along the way should be just that. They should be monuments that either last forever as a source of strength and inspiration, or that you move past once they have provided you the necessary reflections and life lessons they were supposed to. I mean isn't that what people are all about? Bouncing ideas off one another, testing one another's reactions, simply to develop their own true opinions of themselves and the world around them.
The idea is that people come and go, nothing is a guarantee, no matter how convinced you are that it is. So build YOURSELF strong in these categories and you will be sufficient to handle yourself and your life when the time comes for certain people to walk away...
So back to the drawing board, that's where I am. And I've discovered a new career path, something I have wanted to do since I was a kid. Isn't that what dreams really are? The ones we have as children that manifest and grow with us into adulthood? A career I have always pictured myself in, and now its just getting there thats the tricky part. But I will. Oh yes I will. And know you can too...with your dreams that is.
The weight has been lifted. It's officially gone, a distant memory, and now I am once again finding purpose in my life, except this time for myself, and only myself. You see....that is the problem with getting involved in a serious relationship before you have fully developed yourself and where you want to go. It makes it easier to stop worrying about that and just live in the moment. But that my friends, is not reality.
What is reality is that you will one day be completely on your own--financially, emotionally, and physically. It is better to develop your independence in these three areas in the beginning, those who become landmarks along the way should be just that. They should be monuments that either last forever as a source of strength and inspiration, or that you move past once they have provided you the necessary reflections and life lessons they were supposed to. I mean isn't that what people are all about? Bouncing ideas off one another, testing one another's reactions, simply to develop their own true opinions of themselves and the world around them.
The idea is that people come and go, nothing is a guarantee, no matter how convinced you are that it is. So build YOURSELF strong in these categories and you will be sufficient to handle yourself and your life when the time comes for certain people to walk away...
So back to the drawing board, that's where I am. And I've discovered a new career path, something I have wanted to do since I was a kid. Isn't that what dreams really are? The ones we have as children that manifest and grow with us into adulthood? A career I have always pictured myself in, and now its just getting there thats the tricky part. But I will. Oh yes I will. And know you can too...with your dreams that is.
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